How Can We Survive
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I don’t know if your love is true
Give me time to know you more
Tell me your love, you wanted to show
And let me feel that I’m your only girl

It’s hard to be with you always
Coz you’re busy at all times
Your telling me now, that I never had the right to care for you
But that’s the only thing I can do

How can we be together?
When we don’t know how to care for each other
How can we survive in these relationships?
Is the answer for this is just a lifetime friendship?

 Real friends never leave each other
No matter what happen
Real best friends never part ways
No matter what problem may come
Real friends are sometimes sit silently
Deed within each others arm
Real best friends are always be together
Deep within each others heart
Real friends never break its company
No matter what criticisms may receive
Real best friends never break its loyalty
No matter what conflict may produce
Real friends should never be ‘‘plastic”
Just be honest and don’t be judgmental
Real best friends should never be filled with envy
Just be content and don’t get jealous
Real friends are “circle of friends”
Real best friends are of “best buds”
So guys don’t you ever violate these rules
Because its hard to find real friends.

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 Once I feel in love
To whom I admired so much
I care for him every now and then

A day without him is not complete
I miss him more each day
But my love is almost gone
Maybe he didn’t care for me

And so my heart is hurting
To believe my sorrows and heartache
Yes, I told my friends about my love,
And they say, be brave! , stand up! ,

I love hi the way his eyes sparkle
Meaning to say, I love him
As for now, I’m afraid
For I’m in love again…

 Reminiscence of being in love

“it is better to fall – in crush “coz” you have hope and not be disappointed at all, than to be fall – in love that you’ll be hurt and no hope at all.

Yes, I understand how it feels to be “in – love” because I’ve been deeply in love before. But it was a love that has waited for so long and yet never became a reality and that “darned feeling is what I felt for you. Yes, I felt in love with you since we first met, two years ago. How I become crazy over you. How I longed to see you every hour of the day. My feeling was different every time see you and be at your side. How my heart felt delighted every time you talked to me. And say “How are you?” and that way you look at me, how I got conscious and whenever our eyes met. It was as if there was only you and me. Suddenly, in the middle of the crowd, I would blush and would lover my eyes when my friends see you and they began asking me about you and whenever you heard it. Oh! Now your eyes lighted up and then you smiled. That was the thing I like in you, one thing which made you different. Your glances – they puzzled me and made me seek for answer why you’re acting that way, especially when I’m alone. How could I forget the graduation of LNP Seminar as one of my special day that you made me very special when you gave me an advice message and when I heard your voice greeting me. You said “Happy graduation Sister! DECOLORES!!!” your soft voice that I loved to hear always lingering on my mind and even in my dreams. And I always thinking of you, wishing to be near with you and keeping still that I’m in – love with you.

How I dreamt of you dancing with me. In the JS Prom, I was excitedly expecting you to come and approached me for a dance but I was totally disappointed “coz” you’ve never came. Yes, I was hurt when I saw you dancing with other girls, and that moment, I was very sad and feel no hope at all and if I can I will never dance if you would not be my partner.

The music I wished to dance with you makes me feel uneasy whenever I heard it and it reminded me of you. I still remember the picture I grabbed from one of my friends. How eager I was when I did it… because it was your picture.

I pretended that the picture of yours was heartily given on me but you never would. Instead, I will keep it forever more, no more ‘coz” of my hate ness on you I got to tear it and burned.

How I wish to receive a letter from you but you never do. Since then… I’ve see you smiled at me and say again the phrase I’ve so long to hear “How are you?” those glances… those withered words and those memories were left with me alone…unanswered. My heart beats that I still love you and care for you. And still, my heart throbbed every time a letter was handed to me by the postman and wishing they’d came from you. But I was wrong. Not even an advice message again… not until these days.

I still remember when I gave you a flower and a graduation message during your commencement exercises on April 4, 2001. I can’t picture how excitedly open it and see whom it came from… and there you’ve seen my name and suddenly you looked around searching for me and when you saw you just smile and said “thanks”. Then… I can’t say a little gesture but just a smile too. And that was the last moment we’ve seen again. But somehow we will meet again but I think It’s too late. Why? I’ve given my love to somebody who had the courage to say his feelings for me, who could let me, feel I am loved. Perhaps, we’re really meant for each other. Perhaps, that is all what means to be “in – love”. PERHAPS…….